"best friends"

I don’t have a best friend.

I have a lot of good friends and who I know and know me very well…but there is not that 'one' person, who is my soul sister - the one I turn to for everything, who knows me better then anyone else, the one I share all with. My best friend I realize, ends up being the guy I'm with yet rather unfortunately, I have yet to find the one I'm destined to love, share, grow and learn from for the rest of my life. So inevitably when the relationship dissolves, so too does all the work I've done and all that I've invested.

It's not like I turn away or lose touch with my other close friends…I don't think I'm that type. It just seems my friendships and circles have evolved as I have through the different stages of my life…but I worry that my inability to develop a connection stronger then any other, with that one other person (who is not also my lover), means something bad…that there exists, some deep seated issue I've yet to discover or tackle.

hmm.