who needs atkins

last week I found out some bad news.

not the 'somebody died or is very sick' kind which admittedly would have trumped this, but heck even getting fired might have been a bit more manageable given my current headspace. at any rate, i'm not managing my feelings well.

at all.

not sure if 'at all' qualifies as a proper sentence but one thing I won't apologize for, should I continue this experience, is my reckless use of grammer and the english language.

anyway, i have found that in situations where i have no control - i must find something to control - apparently it's hunger which i'm ignoring. Not that I think starving myself is going to change the result of this recent turn of events....but at least i have a say about something.

wow.

anorexia is about control.